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Key point, the pain goes down over time. I think it feels good now, like scratching a deep itch, but I recall holding back yelps when I first tried.

If my years in a technical field have taught me anything, it’s that this half-cooked shit sandwich was made by people in sales and management who were all promoted for making the shareholders happy. It’s always up to the engineers to slap some shit together that they just learned about yesterday and was needed last week.

Yeah, I felt this way when I was 32. Felt like the realization that I was trans just slapped me in the face and I knew I’d regret not doing it but also so very terrified. I kept looking at r/transtimelines and seeing the dead looks in most of the before pictures and seeing how they lit up after. I also read some advice somewhere that every step along the way is reversible, up to a point. You can go see a therapist that deals with gender questions. You can go see an endocrinologist. You can walk out of there with a prescription, but you don’t have to fill it. You can get it filled, but you don’t have to take it. You can take it but you don’t have to keep taking it. You won’t notice anything for a month or so, so you can feel it out and see what you think.

What really helped me was going to the nearest accepting city (Asheville, NC) and just living the entire visit as my chosen gender. We stayed on a skoolie with a hot tub outside and it was a wonderful trip. I also got all dressed up and spent the day in my hammock on mushrooms and did a lot of soul searching. Everytime I asked myself if I was happy with what I was doing, I felt like I was hugging myself back with gratitude for finally letting Eliza have a chance. That feeling has stuck with me ever since.

And yeah, I started at 33, you’re not running out of time. I do wish I realized earlier, but you only get one shot at this life thing and you might as well start living for yourself today.

Thank you for sharing your story, Ada, I’m so happy for you! Remember it’s a marathon for sure and trust the process

What a sweet story! Congratulations, I’m so happy for you!

Whatever part you’d like to be looking at. Here’s

Children of Time by Adrian Tchaikovsky could be up your alley. One of the best books I’ve read in recent memory

Troy looks like he was the sweetest of boys, I hope have a lot of warm memories that you cherish often

How DARE you

Yes, but please don’t fart glitter on him. It’ll never come out

Mari is a fantastic example of a good cat!

I love it! I usually go for a subdued build without RGB or anything, but now I NEED this in my life.

He definitely has a favorite person (hint: not me)

I told Derek you said hi and he rolled over and went back to sleep 🤷‍♀️

I think the premise is she’s doing the opposite of what she’s told, so she slurrp when she’s told to push.

Howdy, pardner!

The tip is to get yourself really pissed off or in a rush about something and then you can jah yourself out of anger without thinking about it. I can barely feel it when I do it like that, but if I hesitate and do a light jab, it goes halfway and my leg is sore for a week.

But this video says to just push… Like, rest the needle on your skin and start pushing it in? Is that what you do? Makes me want to throw up thinking about it, but maybe I’ll try it.

Huh, so I guess I’ve been doing it wrong for a year or so? My numbers are always fine, but I go on the top of the thigh instead of the side and I basically ram the needle as hard as I can because otherwise I’ll whimp out and only get it halfway in there. And I’m using 1.5" needles, which look bananas scary.